Ever since my father's supervisor left, my dad has steadily been making fewer and fewer sales at his job. Over the summer, he was bringing in around $1300 each paycheck according to my brother, but now it has dropped to $600, then down to $200. Not even enough to pay the rent for September. I also need to get to Pullman to take care of the things that I have there. I may have to just go to Idaho Falls with just a single suitcase and a few belongings until I earn enough to go to Pullman to pick up my other things. I really wish that I hadn't lost my pickup truck. It would have make things so much easier to do.
Well, today it is raining. I'm glad that I put things away in preparation for it, but I still don't know what I should do today. I should probably go with my brother to mow some lawns. It will help him and hopefully calm down the mood in the family. I also need to look up housing in Idaho Falls, schedule a flight over there, and do several other things.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Living life missing doctrine
Yesterday my brother exploded in a heated moment of passion regarding his belief that he will never find a girl that will love him, get married, have a family. He also made the claim that he can never have a future dream that he can pursue. He believes he is cursed of God.
Well, as I can see it, my brother has a problem in his theology regarding God. First is that he believes that God doesn't love him, that God wants to punish him for any reason whatsoever. Second, is that he believes that his current situation will be his perpetual situation. Third, is that since this is his perpetual situation he doesn't have to make plans for a future.
In truth, I think that he is just scared. He tends to show anger in order to hide his fear. While he said that he looks at having a lawn service perpetually, he doesn't plan on taking it to the official business stage where he can grow it, have employees, pay all of the business taxes and insurance fees, and deal with all of the administrative overhead. He really doesn't want to be a permanent lawn service professional anyway, but he is afraid of doing anything else. I just wish I knew how to counsel him so that he can find the courage to build a future for himself.
Well, as I can see it, my brother has a problem in his theology regarding God. First is that he believes that God doesn't love him, that God wants to punish him for any reason whatsoever. Second, is that he believes that his current situation will be his perpetual situation. Third, is that since this is his perpetual situation he doesn't have to make plans for a future.
In truth, I think that he is just scared. He tends to show anger in order to hide his fear. While he said that he looks at having a lawn service perpetually, he doesn't plan on taking it to the official business stage where he can grow it, have employees, pay all of the business taxes and insurance fees, and deal with all of the administrative overhead. He really doesn't want to be a permanent lawn service professional anyway, but he is afraid of doing anything else. I just wish I knew how to counsel him so that he can find the courage to build a future for himself.
Monday, August 30, 2010
A new blog
This blog is more for me and following up on some of my other blogs that are more story based. I may vet some ideas here and other concepts that don't particularly fit in my other blogs or that I don't want to post on Facebook.
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